was i relieved when i decided 2 do that???absolutely not.but of cuz,i cnt stop wad ppl wan 2 do...they have their own rights.....sounds familiar....i bet it does...2 some ppl.....ya,i noe this will make me seem v cynical but 2 speak the truth,when was i ever not?so wad if ppl feels relieved that i did that.......so damn disppointed....feel lyk gg straight up n shout my head off.....but i wun.......i'm a v rational person.at least, will make myself be a rational person no matter wad...an ancient chinese proverb:"hao ma bu chi hui tou cao"...sigh....4gt it......i'm getting more n more pissed off...by wad?u make ur own conclusion.BYE!

i cried...because of tinks i couldn stop frm happening...`
[7:10:00 PM]

dunno y dat tot juz suddenly popped into my mind.....does being sian means dat u're sad?dunno......anyway,i'm feeling dead tired nw....the whole wk is filled w/ band pracs etc....hav 2 wake up so early.....n nw i hav a hard time getting 2 slp....i dunno y...even if i'm damn tired.....i'll toss n turn 4 quite a while b4 getting 2 slp.......sigh......perhaps cuz a while back aft the camp i went straight on hol...in the end didn slp on a proper bed 4 almost the whole wk.....mayb dat's the reason.....nt 2 sure......somehw i'm feeling very peaceful n calm nw....although i havn done much home wk n etc.....mayb it will all come back 2 haunt me.....bah.....

i cried...because of tinks i couldn stop frm happening...`
[8:47:00 PM]

i dunno y i'm feeling lyk crap nw........i mean i tot i was so over that.....suddenly feel so damn frustrated w/ the world........come 2 tink of it.........i havn been saying the 'f' word 4 who noes hw long.......guess i've changed....n nt onli in dat way.......nw wad's left is some sort of bitter hatred i guess..........or mayb even pity.......nt meant 4 me.time 2 move on...i wont die w/out a fren liddat rite?i guess i made my point....anyway......"cant b bothered"!familar.......ironic isn it?!ironic.....i'm ranting....getting a lil bit retarded......4 all u noe,i probably wun b in sch nxt yr....admitted 2 IMH.......*evil cackle*....dis wk's filled of band.....pracs,sch openhouse,cc performance etc......sian......-/i sincerely wish that someone will wake up one day n stare hard at wad he/she sees..../-

i cried...because of tinks i couldn stop frm happening...`
[8:18:00 PM]

read siti's blog......was overwhelmed by the recent entry....y did she suddenly tink of that topic........bt i agree w/ wad she's saying..u realli cnt pls anyone....right nw i've suddenly tot of sumtink...wad's the definition of popular?is it 2 hav many frenz,no matter that u dun even really noe half of them v well?or is it that u dress well n hang out w/ the right people?or is it juz 2 b urself n feel confident abt wad u do n who u r?i lyk 2 tink its the last grp.....bt unfortunately,no....the society isn liddat......the society accepts popular people as those who look gd on the surface.......majority....there r still a few exceptions......anyway,i juz wanna b myself n feel confident abt myself n wad i do...........ytd,was juz listening 2 S.H.E's new album-Encore......the songs r more mature..........nice........there's a cover version of Everytime.......my sis keeps singing the songs every chance she has.............-_-"..........

i cried...because of tinks i couldn stop frm happening...`
[9:28:00 AM]

u c some ppl's blogs,den u go c some oth ppl's....wad they say is lyk...........both sides of the world.........the north pole n the south pole.......the onli common tink they hav is dat they're both cold..........moz of u probably dun understand wad i'm saying.....nvm.anyway,ytd spent the whole day fiddling w/ my ipod mini n playing the sims 2........i'm still wondering if i still wanna b a peerleader....i guess moz probably not.......juz 4gt it ba....cuz......nvm.there r still many tinks of mine nt solved........dis n dat.......dis tight knot n another even tighter knot........perhaps the onli way 2 un-knot it is 2 cut it........n end the matter.......i dunno........anyway,i'm gg 2 the claz gathering n i'm quite looking forward 2 it.........even though i cn sorta know wad will happen dat day..........

i cried...because of tinks i couldn stop frm happening...`
[8:35:00 AM]

the trip was fun...despite me missing band pracs n the peer leader tink..with all the ppl ard my age joking ard n playing together....takes my mind off tinks......we also went 2 pangkor island other than ipoh....the place was cool......some of us went 2 ride on the banana boat n the flying fish...i went 4 both...we went snorkelling too......it was nice,looking at all the fish n etc..did some shopping on the way back....bt the onli tink was dat i hvn been slpin on a bed since mon...onli slpt on a bed on thurs.....so my back hurts lyk hell....anyway,gt my ipod mini n a few other tinks i wanted when we gt back ytd n went out.....n 2 siti:i dun really noe whether wad i'm tinking is wad u r tinking,so if u could,call me k?thx...

i cried...because of tinks i couldn stop frm happening...`
[8:23:00 AM]

back frm camp...............camp wasn quite wad i tot......bt on the overall it was fine..........despite some oth factors such as mosquitoes,food etc.....simple tinks such as baths n a bed cn bcome a luxury during camp..........bt we take them 4 granted usually n onli appreciate thwm when we dun hav it..............lyk sum tinks i noe........anyway, slpt soundly on the bus on the way back 2 sch...it was so much better than the bunk........even though i slpt lyk a log on the 2 nites............tonite gg 2 m'sia.........so tired........juz wanna curl up in bed n hibernate..........guess i'll onli blog nxt wk when i'm back........

i cried...because of tinks i couldn stop frm happening...`
[1:32:00 PM]